When people called it NORMAL...

          
           Orang slalu bercerita tntg keseronokan mengandung, smua yg positif tntg pregnancy, how excited they are to be pregnant! Memanglah, smua tu obsolutely true! Pregnancy time is something amazing and magical. But this time aku nak cte sketla pe yg xbest tntg being pregnant ni. Don't get me wrong ya! I'm enjoying myself being 33weeks pregnant!=) Sharing is a good thing rite?

            To start with, time mengandung ni, as we all know, akan banyaklah perubahan berlaku pd diri kita gradually, starting from the moment we knew that we are pregnant, and it will never stop! Yelah, awal2 prgnant even b4 we knew it, dh ade tnda2 kelainan pd diri kte cam muntah2, letih, cpt ngntuk, slalu buang air kcik, demam2, n so on. Smakin mmbesar kandungan, smakin byk prubahan yg b'laku n ade kalanya ianya b'laku scara drastik! Utk kandungan pertama, nk 2gu prut mmbesar mmglah agak lmbt je rs, smpai org ingtkn kte ni "tak jadi" mengandung!huhuu.. Tapi, ble dh msuk trimester ke3 tuh, kjp je prt naik, smpai pkaian2 dh xmuat lg kt kte. Smua nk kne bli yg baru. Yeah, ble kte mengeluh ckp baju dh xmuat, seluar dh ketat, org akan kata,"alaa normal la tu, pregnant kannn.." But do they know what exactly we feel deep inside us???

Let me tell u what I feel....

            Bile badan makin membesar, kte jadi rndu saat2 "kurus" dlu...  Yelah, dlu2 smua bju muat, blh dgayakan dgn jeans lg! Aku mmg suke pkai jeans, dh brape bln xpkai ni, rs rndu sgt2... Tp aku jd rsau tkt smua tu dh xmuat utk dpakai even lps stahun b'salin nnti!!! My goshhh, dgn segala lemak yg t'kumpul slama 9bulan mengandung ni, mmpukah ianya hilang??huuu... Nk tukar smua bj2 n sluar2 dlm almari bknnye sng, dhla xtau nk tkr fesyen cmne, costly plak tuuu... Pkaian2 mengandung ni xde yg murah, smua mahal. Sluar dlm yg dlu biasa beli 3helai RM10 pn skrg dh xdpt.. Sluar dlm mngndung je dh RM12.90 sehelai. Baju, sluar pjg, smuanya RM50 ke ats. Aku yg xbekerja ni, sakitla ckit nk bli smua tuu.. Nk prepare brg2 baby lg.. Husband la kesian...tension beliau nk mncari duit.. Dlu pnyalah gigih nk jge bntuk bdn, tp ble dh peknen, dh xkisah dh smua tu sbb pk kshtn bby je, so hentam je sgala bnd smpai bdn naik xhnti2! Muka tembam, punggung n peha mkin bsr dek lemak2 yg t'kumpul. Inila yg mnusia pngl NORMAL.... Kte yg menanggung ni yg sakit!

            1lagi, bila sakit2 badan menyerang! Kang skit blakang, kjp skt kaki, jln lbih skit cramp,mkn ckit nk muntah, bring plak jd pdih ulu hati. Kalo jrg2 je xpe, blhla anggap NORMAL. Tapi kalo dh nk buat sgala bnd xblh, nk tido pn dh xlena, perkataan NORMAL tu xbuat kte rase lega at all! Normal yg menyakitkan adelah! Biasenye org ckp "normal" just utk legakan hati kte kn? Tp ble badan dh xskuat dlu, xsecantik dlu, it doesn't means anything dh kt kte... Sorilah to say but dats da reality! And what hurt more ble husband sndri yg menyaksikan sgala penderitaan kte tu wt "donno" or xmnunjukkan sympathy kt kte. At least smbil2 gosok tu ckpla, "ksian isteri abg ni kne tanggung sorg2...kuatkn semnagat ye, abg bantu syg stakat t'mampu.." Hah! kan best je dgr tuuu.... Xpn ble tgk kte belek2 bdn kt dpn cermin, ckpla "lawa tu isteri abg time peknen cmni, bkn slalu abg dpt tgk syg cmni..." fuhhh mmg melebarlah senyuman kte stp hari!heheh... Tp xde pn cmtu, diperlinye kte ni adelah.. Gemuk laa, besar kt c2la, besar kt sini laa... Walaupn gurauan tp sakit gk mendengarnye!hahaaa.......

           So, NORMAL, bagi normal people is NOT normal for US! Those unpleasant things are something new that they don't even feel it yet. Mungkin kte kate smua tu normal, tp mngkin hny di bibir... Dlm hati, hanya Tuhan tahu penderitaan yg kte tanggung. Bak kata org, HATI MENANGIS SIAPA TAHU! Tapi kemanisan mengandung tetap melebihi segalanya... Mana tak nya, there's a little thing in your womb growing from you and your husband as your child! It is growing, kicking, moving, responding to your touch and words... How amazing it is, waiting to be loved by us... I'm not complaining, just tell u what I feel so that u'll understand and know what exactly pregnant mom feels. Later u'll feel it yourselves! Why do I have to complain when this is what I want! and I'm totally grateful for THIS! Walaupun once you pregnant, your body xkan jadi mcm masa u anak2 dara dlu dh...walaupun luaran nmpk still ok, tp dalaman? only God knows... Scary bkn?heheh..sje wt gimik! Don't afraid to get pregnant, but make sure u're mentally n physically ready for that,okay! +__+

p/s : Mama sayang anak mama, n mama sayang papa soooo much! I'll sacrifice anything for both of you, even nyawa dipertaruhkan! and I Love myself soo much too.... Can't wait to hold my baby in my arms...=)